Ok guys I think I need a little encouragement here because… even tho I’m not totally done with treatment, I think I have decided I’m going to fake it till I make it and ring the bell 🔔 I don’t know why I make the world’s biggest deal about everything, always…but I do 🫣 and it’s just that the symbolism of ringing the bell is packed with very, very scary memories and emotions, most of which I’ve kept swept under the rug because I was way way way too sick to even process. Now that I’m starting to feel better, it’s all flooding in 🥹 I don’t want to look back, but I also know the only way out is through. So even though I don’t feel 100% “ready,” I’m hoping the bell can signal the beginning of a new chapter of healing. Or I don’t know, I just hope it does something to me emotionally and helps me heal. I’m trying to take a step forward. I talked about this, but there’s this feeling I get during treatment when I hear someone else ring the bell. I burst into tears every. single. time. It gives me hope, but it also overwhelms me, because I know the hell on earth they just walked through and I wonder how they are feeling. Like really. It’s not easy to process all the emotions. 🥹 Anyways, in true Bridget fashion, without any real reason or logic whatsoever (plus 2 or 3 more treatments to go) I think, I might. AND MAYBE IT’S NOT ABOUT ME. Maybe it’s divine timing and it’s all for someone else. Maybe I’m just the messenger of hope like so many people have been for me. P.s. I know it’s a blessing to even get to type this and I keep praising God for that. 🥹🩷 ily LTKgrwm